Ata

My name is Peter Paul Kawagaelg Williams, I am half Yupik Eskimo and half European blend. There was a time when we harvested our own food. Giving thanks as we held it in our hands. Making tools and clothes from the remains. These acts created a connection with God that we are now covering up with concrete and shrink-wrap. As an Alaska Native man, I have struggled with finding my place in this new world. Drugs and alcohol served as the false promise that filled the void caused by cultural displacement. Along my journey of identity, I found healing through the Spiritual act of harvest. I talk with the animals, letting them know what I will do with them, and how I will honor the life they give. Sometimes they look at me in the eyes. Other times, they offer me the shot I need. Out of Eskimo custom and respect, I give the animal I just harvested its last drink of water--making peace with it and showing thanks for its life. With bare hands, I begin to skin and harvest the meat. I like eating sea otter meat not only because it tastes good but it also deepens my relationship with the animal and shows respect for the life it gave. I take great pride and joy in taking care of my animals. Some of them I even tan myself. Sewing with animals I have hunted and tanned insures that I maintain control over the quality. This also strengthens and deepens the relationship I have with the animals. For their ancestors and mine have a relationship that dates back thousands and thousands of years. Through this connection with my ancestors, nature, and God, I continue my spiritual journey of sobriety and cultural identity. Intertwining the importance and celebration of animals and nature back into our lives.